another tiring day.

and life is taking a downturn again!
whee!
HAIX.

lol. more PW stuff coming up and i must overcome my fear of public speaking!
GO! XIAOYUN!

and results will be given back soon..
i hope i'll b okay.

i really dont know how i became so stupid ever since i gotten into NJ.
ok, i wasnt smart either
BUT i wasnt this dumb.

i cant believe im worried im not going to pass chem n maths n econs n bio n physics and gp..
okay, crap. thats basically everything then.

yea, i should b aiming for As..
i was hoping for that ttntuhthrbi thingy
because its held in that place but..

well.
yeah lo.

and ytd, when hansen n i were on msn,
i was telling him sometimes it better to b normal than extremely smart n talented till u lost communication with your peers.

no, i changed my mind.
i'd rather b clever and super talented.
(or would i?)

i hate being stupid.
i hate worrying abt my results all the time.
i really wished i had a bigger brain and more talented.

i really wish i wouldnt stammer during OP!

LOL! we had oral presentation workshop today
AND i got nervous AGAIN.

i wasnt really nervous when the thing started cuz i was rather assured by the sound of liwen's voice somehow.
then, i was my turn.
i wasnt really afraid of that guy.

i was more afraid of myself.
more afraid that i may forget something or stutter.
and i did.
LOL.
damn lame lahh..

i was totally embarassed by my abnormal behaviour.
no, even though there were others who were equallty nervous,
it didnt helped me feel better.

i really want to know WHY.
and HOW to be less nervous.
HAIXXX..
i wish my face will stop growing red and hot.

zzz..
nvm. practice practice and practice..
and get suppport from as many ppl as possible.
argh.i wanna cry.
but sth else happened.
it's a very small matter.
but it made me smile thanks.
n thanks yawn for comforting me just now.
& thanks Qiao;D im okay le. wont think abt it lah lol.

"然后 是那美丽的邂逅
我一直以为我们之间会发生些什么
但是 最后还是发觉
不 那隐藏着我们的秘密的眼神
那种眼神的交会
其实不说 更美丽。

然后我就不再怀疑了 不再去想了"

=)

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